-Cleverquacks
I think something is wrong with me,
For wishing to be ill;
Something more than a dull throb in my bones.
A reason to lie still in the warm embrace of my blankets,
As if sleep may answer what I cannot.
I think something is wrong with me,
For craving a shakespearean sorrow,
Something tragic and grand.
Something to name this soft, quiet ache that creeps around,
Making even the softest sounds seem too loud.
I think something is wrong with me,
For wishing for something else entirely;
A wound, a shadow on a scan—
Anything to prove that I am not just
Lonely and sad.
But in the end,
Maybe something is wrong with me,
For needing something
To be wrong at all.
WOW! This is written beautifully!
ReplyDeleteThis is often a feeling felt by a lot but never put into words. You've put this into words beautifully and you're brave to post about such a raw feeling.
Often people feel this way when life is too smooth for them, they crave something exciting or sorrowful so that it will not be the same thing everyday. This also can be felt by people who are feeling lonely.
Know that, whenever you feel this way, you have the full control to bring that change or make life exciting.
Feel the sun, go for a walk, drink hot chocolate and talk to a cat or a plant. Put nail polish or fancy up a hair style. 💅
Aww thank you! That means a lot =]
Deleteyou're so right with this. i think something is wrong with me constantly. i feel like i'm an alien living in a world with people, who feel and experience things so much differently from me.
ReplyDeletefireworks terrify me, and yet others find them amazing and 'yay! happy new year!' while i'm sitting in a corner sobbing my eyes out. i don't get a lot of social cues and things, so in conversations, i blank out. i love when people share things about them, and open up, and i love doing that with people too. but people who want to listen come rarely. and those who do, in my personal experience, stay for a bit and just wander and talk about themselves. and i honestly am horrible at consoling them.
i wish i did have some official document or a reason for feeling this way. i wish there was something wrong with me, officially, rather than speculation. i wish something was wrong with me because i'd rather be ill than just plain weird.
cleverquacks, i hope you feel better now as from when you wrote this. i really do.
but if you do find yourself feeling this way again, know that you are loved. i know that it's weird that a random person online is saying that but. yeah. does that make sense?